The Dreaded Reveal

I don't get it but every time I see a picture of myself I feel am shocked and my first response is OMG I AM HUGE.  I don't know why because I am well aware that I am -  especially around the skinny chicks. Pictures don't lie and apparently neither do the numbers.  I stepped on the scales for my starting weight.  In my head I could hear Alison, "Cheryl your starting wieght is..." and the numbers bouncing up and down in head as I try to guess what it will be...116kg...WTF what does that mean.  UGH! The scale I bought doesn't do my stone-age pounds.  I jump on the computer for a conversion...SHUT THE FRONT DOOR thats 256 pounds!  I guess I am going to have to work a little more harder than I thought eh!  Next week when I step on that scale it will read 253.  It will be in that moment when my own disgust in myself will turn into a sense of pride for goal one reached! 
I had Dave help me with the measurements.  If I am going to put my journey out there then I need to continue with full disclosure.

Neck: 16.75 in
Shoulder: 49.5 in
Chest: 52 in
Ribs: 43 in
Waist: 47.5 in
Hips: 46.5 in
Thighs: 27.75 in
Calf: 18.5 in
Ankle: 10.5 in

UGH says it all. 

As far as the day goes I did ok foodwise.  I went over my calories for the day by 30 - if I exercise I can get rid of the overage which is the plan before biggest loser comes on tonight.  The shake is omg crump-dilly-ious!  I can see myself looking forward to those sins of the day.  It was dinner that I struggled with.  I love starchy foods!  I had a big bowl of salad with my sausage.  It looked good on paper.  I am going to have to rework how I do my dinners so I can feel more satisfied.  I'll do that tomorrow *wink*.  Day 1 down 364 to go!